For the longest time
I waged wars within myself as well as between myself and others. My 20’s were a time of deep despair and euphoria. They were as Twain put it so eloquently “the best of times and the worst of times”. I didn’t seek help even though I knew something was broken inside, my mind was not well. I was up and down, my moods an unmanageable thermostat. A lot of bad things happened to me and because of me; the past 15 years have been one of self-discovery, fight and strife. I always fought for my life, I had to, the other option was defeat and certain death. Despite what I’ve been through I wouldn’t change a thing. It has made me the man I am today. Strong, resident and ever-adapting. My struggles have conditioned me to succeed against all odds. Like a lotus flower, I survive despite the chaotic and depraved environment. I never lost hope or my generous heart; although I faltered a time or two.
I like, I love who I am today. No longer having to hide or change like a chameleon to please others, that need no longer exists. I live for me, For my family and friends, The people that matter. I live and take care of myself so that I can take care of my family, for I am a nurturer. I live in the moment. Focused on my future. I live for today